On being a massive extrovert

I am extremely sociable. I’m not sure it’s a good thing to be so reliant on other people. One is supposed to be more self sufficient. I feel that I’ve read a lot recently about introverts, and their need to retreat from contact with people to recharge. However, I am the opposite. I recharge from being around people. Not necessarily a party, but a good group of friends with banter and jokes and comfort on a bad day.
I recently had an experience that was overwhelmingly amazing. It was 2 weeks of hard work with a great team of people. Always “on”, extremely tiring, but exciting. We were working together to create something wonderful. It didn’t always go perfectly, there were problems to solve, tension, stress and god awful tiredness. But overall it was a fantastic success, created by team effort.
And now it’s over. And I feel flat, and blue, and actually like my heart is hurting.
I’ve been thinking this morning and realised some things about myself. The contrast between the last weeks of being constantly surrounded by people, always busy and laughing so much and my own day to day life is too striking. I feel like my daily life is lacking in people. With family far away and a scattered community of friends, company time is scheduled in advance and too infrequent. And hugs, goddamit, how am I going to cope without constant casual physical contact? I’m spending too much time on my own. I could not cope with the intensity of the last 2 weeks all the time. Even someone as extroverted as me needs some down time. And sleep! Oh, the sleep.
I don’t have any answers yet. But thoughts are starting to percolate about ways I can invite some more of the good people stuff into my life, in a more balanced way.
This needs some further thought. In the meantime, coffee.


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